miserable...

what should i do ne ?

anyone , let me know pls..

爱从一个微笑开始。。。

爱从一个微笑开始，爱一个不爱你的人是痛苦的，爱一个人却没有勇气让他明了你的心是更痛苦的。
　
　　也许上天故意让我们在遇到生命中的真命天子之前，遇到几个有缘无份的人，这样我们才能学会去珍惜这份迟来的礼物。随着一切冲动，激情，浪漫的消失，你对那个人的关心及牵挂仍然丝毫未减。那便是爱了。
　
　　生命中最悲哀的事莫过于放弃追逐你所爱的人，看着他远离。他对于你的重要并不能使他回馈给你什么。无论你追逐多久，你还是要让他走。
　
　 　我们容易沉浸在现有的快乐中，久久陶醉而不能自拔，当这快乐突然消失，我们茫然不知所措，为失去的快乐陷入苦闷的深渊，却没有发现在生命中的其他地方还 有太多快乐等待着我们去感受。最好的朋友不需要任何语言的沟通，当他走过时，你只需坐在回廊上，轻轻的挥挥手，却觉得是你曾经有过的最美妙的沟通。
　
　　我们在失去的时候才懂得曾经拥有过，可我们也在得到时发现我们曾经缺少的。
　
　　在付出爱的时候，谁也不确定会得到回报，不要期待着得到爱，慢慢的等待你的爱在他的心中生根发芽，即使不会，你也当满足，因为你心中已有了一片爱的绿洲。
　
　　也许有许多话你永远也不可能从你期望的人的口中说出，但是，当有些人从心底讲出这些话时，也请你不要走开。如果你还恋恋不舍，那么请不要转过你的头。
　
　　如果你的心还没有安定，那么请你永远不要说放弃。如果你还爱他，为什么要说不爱？爱属于那些曾灰心失望却仍继续期待的人，爱属于那些曾被出卖欺骗却仍坚信美好的人，爱属于那些纵然伤痕累累，却仍渴求爱的人。
　
　 　和一个人反目只要一分钟，和一个人相爱却要一个小时，而忘记一个人却要花上一生的时间。不要为了美丽的外表而动身，那也许只是假象，不要为了财富而动 身，那终将变淡褪色。走向那个能够使你会心微笑的人吧，因为一个微笑可以把黑暗照亮。希望你能找到那个把你生命照亮的人。当你深深思念的人出现在梦中时， 你真的希望能够感受他真实的拥抱。希望你的生命中有个可想可梦的人。
　
　　做你想做的梦，做你想要做的事，去你想要去的地方，成为你想要成为的人，因为你只有一次生命来满足你的要求。
　
　 　祝福你有无限的快乐使你的生活甜美，无数的尝试 磨练你变的坚强，无尽的痛苦使你称的上一个真正的人，万贯的钱财，以给我买一个礼物。永远设身处地的为他 人着想，当你受伤的时候，别人的心或许也在痛。一句无心的话可能引起一场争斗，一句残酷的话可能会毁坏一个人的生活，一句及时的话可能会平复波浪，一句充 满爱心的话可能会治逾别人的伤口。
　
　　爱的真谛，是让你爱的人完全的做他自己，而不是让他成为你理想的人，否则，你爱的只是你在他身上找到的你的影子。
　
　　最快乐的人不是最完美的人，他们只是充分的利 用了他们所能握在手中的。
　　哭过的人，受过伤的人，追求过的人，尝试过的人，充满感激的人，才是真正懂得快乐的人。
　
　　爱从一个微笑开始，在热吻中得以延伸，却随眼泪逝去。

　这就是我。。。

wait a minute......





i understand now ... ^_^

QUESTIONS

Haha , lol , i found these question from someone's blog , and is really an interesting post she have.I bet many lovers might ask have these doubts and question for their own lovers , especially for girls they always needs security from guys , so guys , if you can't give her that , sorry to say that but let her go lah~or else she'll suffer ho ho,don't tocher her lah i know she's beautiful .

ooopsss sorry sorry , run's out of the topic again , fuck me . ok ^^ here

If I said I love you,
Will you love me back ?

If I said I like you,
Will you reject me ?

If I was in danger,
Will you come & protect me ?

If I want you,
Do you want me ?

If I am lonely,
Will you talk to me ?

If I was with you,
Will you break with me ?

If I said I hate you,
Will you hate me to ?

When you're with someone else,
I will not interupt and stay broken.

BUT

If I was with someone else and
I was over you,
Will you come for me ?

Attention : well you can answer those question here de ~ ^^ if you want :p hehe ^^

Sense...

I can sense that , we both are tired with these now...can really sense it .. will we make it ? until the day we had promise ? ..... well , i 'll just ... do whatever i have to do now .. hold on to this.. hold on.. just , let it goes naturally ... and see , if , this is our destiny .. remember the word esther , if is yours , no matter what happens , no matter how long it goes , no matter how many rounds it turns , is still yours , it will came back to you still ... at the end ... but if is not belongs to your destiny , no matter how you try to grab it , it still wouldn't be yours ... cause it is not belongs to you...


But i do believe that , as long as we both still have love in our heart , we'll make it

But if , haha , if one of us really lost the feelings in our heart .. it won't make it i m sure .. cause love is not just from one side , is from both side , only both can carry one love .. then it won't be any suffering in it. But ya know.. i m not the one that easily gave up with the one i love , i will still fight for it , until.. when it really needs to come to an end ,
then i 'll gave up .. i know you always had those believes in your heart but is all about the feelingss still... can't force that. Is hurt maybe , but never regret with it. i choose the path myself , so i have to face what would happen next ... haiz.. i don't know why this god =.=''' always prank on me with those stuff... is really my fate lah.. cause man ! never thought of having such a great young man .. to be the one i love never ever.. since i broke up with that bastard =.=''' i really decided to cut off any guys that try to chase me and telling me the same thing over and over again , making me really , oh boy not that again ... =.='''

but still , wakakakka !!! I met him ... and he's cool , really cool , the character and great personality of his , making me arggggggggggg !! why so damn good !?? But at first , really thought he was my pal , never even think of there is love that happens between us .. cheh , this God lah , prank of me again , swt !

when i think back all these , i was what the fuck am i doing ? Noooooooooo ! no way ! nooooooo ! How can you in love with a leng chai like him !?? Man you don't even deserve to lah ! cheh ! this time , you die esther ! you will die again !! nooooooo !! I promise to myself that i will never ever choose a leng chai to become the one that i love , cause personalities wins it all , and leng chai will never be stable >"< , they always cheat. But i believe that he won't cheat , is just ... haiz.. still he is a leng chai ... i bet he will find more and more girls better than me .. so from the start at this story .. obviously there is a consequences show up ... maybe you 'll said >> " who knows ? esther ? maybe he won't ? , but still the " who knows " only stands a little chance and percentage ... Cause haiz.. old story , let's don't talk about that.. but leng chai !! man !! no leng chai in my life no leng chai !! But why .. God has to put the cupid's love arrow on me ne ? haiz... haiz... haiz..

haiz !!!!!! And why !! it had to be that long distance !!?? fuck !! God !! are you nuts !?

strange things always happen happen happen .. cheh ! ! And , i m totally , totally drown into him now , can't change this fact .... haha well , if this time , FAILS AGAIN !! !!! ( fuck you )

I RATHER TO BE SINGLE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE , NO LOVE FOR ME !! YAY !!

>> at last i m free !! yay !!

说爱我

说爱我。。。
在我的耳边对我说。。。
我已经真的太久忘了这种心动。。。
爱太难了解了。。 我们还看不懂
那一些心酸快乐 ，
有多少还很真呢？
说爱我，
用你的手心温柔我。。。
就算你不能证明爱我能爱多久。。。
我知道 ， 你 。。 想躲 。。。
我要的并不多。。
一起看天空好吗？
一分钟。。。
说爱我。。　好吗？

我。。等你。

forget me not..
Everlasting love and remembrance...

Distance...

The distance between us .... haiz... how ne.. really sad er...

maybe .. i should just .. ??? you know like.. gave up ?

what the !! no !! no !! no !! will never ever think that !!! arggggggg !! stop it !! fuck off !!!

huh huh huh ... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!

How to prevent from viruses ?

Well recently i saw this from my friend and i think it would be better if everyone know this...

thanks daniel anyway ^^ for your nice guide ^^ although it wasn't a very serious guide...

(no this is not a serious guide)

HOw To Prevent Virus on Your Comp

1. Don't DL porn (no BH.. not even little bit.)
2. Don't click the "CONGRATS YOU ARE THE 999,99th VISITOR" banner. (mom did this b4)
3. Don't accept files from just anyone. If someone sends a unknown file over, make sure you ask the person what he is sending. Esp Chinese songs. My com is full of china songs that i don't listen to because all my china friends keep sending me... o.. lari topik.. sori
4. Use an anti virus. I know ppl who don't. (pokes at see seng :P)
   

IF You AlrEady KeNa ViruS

1. Download Free Anti Virus Like AVG and Ad-Aware.
2. Find Even more GENG anti virus. Try www.final4ever.com
3. If all fails, go to dban.sourceforge.net and REFORMAT!!!
4. If that fails........ Well.. PC fair might help...