Saturday, 21 June 2008

心灵能量最重要。







能量。能量必须时时储存,才能释放出动人光华。

曾有一位女老师教诲我们,学历越高的女性,越不容易嫁出去,她特别以我们这班的女性为例子,
说像我们这样的女生,一定会要求另一半 “身材比我高啦 , 学历比我高啦,收入比我高啦” 所以就是难上加难了。我立即申辩 : " 其实,只要能谈得来就好了。''

'' 谈得来?’’ 我的女老师拍案叹息 :‘‘这要求简直是太高了’’

我以为这已是最低标准了,怎么会太高呢?从此以后,我再也不敢谈论所谓的择偶条件。同时观察着,那些不高的择偶条件都是怎样的呢?

这几年来,电视常有相亲速配的节目,收视率也都很不错,我最感兴趣的是,那些年轻女孩高谈阔论,宣告自己的择偶条件:‘‘月入五万以上,要有车子,应该要有自己的房子,至少房子的头期款已付清。。。。。。原来,这就是所谓的‘‘择偶条件’’。

最近有位女性上电视当来宾,主持人例行公事的询问择偶条件,另一位同样未婚的男性来宾清清触楚提出 :‘‘要有长头发’’,我却在一旁困惑着,长头发有什么重要或特别呢? 任何一个女人只要改变心情,都可能把长发剪短,也可能戴上假发变长发,这竟然可以成为择偶必须的条件? 

那位女性后来诚实的说:‘‘拥有相当的心灵能量才是最重要的’’ , 结果引起一阵哗然,议论纷纷,说这不但难度指数到达前所未有的六颗星级,而且有点玄之又玄了。

我的想法是,头发啦,身高啦,收入啦,车子房子啦,都会随着外界环境而改变,其实并不可靠,所以也不重要。真正要与我们长久相处的,并不是这一切可以看见的东西,而是内在的心灵。具有能量的心灵,能在富贵时不迷失,穷困时不消极,知道自己真正想追求的 理想与目标,所以不轻易收到诱惑。人生难免有高潮低潮,唯有心灵能量充足的人,才能用保良好的情感与生活态度。

在情侣分手,夫妻分离,情感充满各种不安定因素的时代,我坚信真正能牵手走过人生道路的,都是心灵能量相当的人。

Thursday, 19 June 2008

Sick....I will take care of you ~ ^^

Wah.... sick ah ~ very cold ah ~ fever now... Morning , hot like hell , then evening , it keeps raining like shit , the wind is cold , and I was on duty for the librarian again , going back home by bus , And got soaked a bit in the rain , so I decided to wait for my dad to fetch me back at my mom's working place. Mane tahu itu stupid punye air conditioner , keep blowing me , directed to my face , i was damn cold , then my mom she order a hot tea for me , feels a little bit ok after then , but still damn cold. haiz..When back to my home , is already 8 pm something , I have waited my father for three hours , and i do not know the what's the difference with traveling home by public buses.

I started to felt some headache , and cold , but my forehead was indeed very hot. So I cover myself with blankets , no fan , no air conditioner , just me and my blanket , my bed , my room, and my cute pillow. But i can't sleep , so my mind starts to think and imagine things as it usual does all the time , I flash back the memory that happens between me and Soon this morning , at school , when we all have to enter the ICT ( Informative Computer Technology) room for General Knowledge class period. We have some few presentation to finish. But Soon were head to the wash room with Yap , so i decided to prepare the books for them , I took out the General Knowledge text book out from her bag , and her pencil box as well , I thought she might be needed to write something else during the class session ( because i noticed her habit , she always noted down things from the teacher which she thought might be important for the coming test week. ) And so I took out her text pad , oh yeah , she loves drinking water , and then i did the same as well to her bottle. Then Yap , i did the same thing to Yap , took out everything she needed to bring. I was afraid that they might mistaken the the place for the class , so i wrote down a few words on the white board , >> PA class , head forward to the ICT Lab , be quick my dear , or else teacher scold muahahaha ~ XD , dedicated to Soon and Yap XD. << Then i left the class , and ran to the ICT lab immediately.

A few minutes later , they both showed up , on their hand , was the stuff that i had prepare for them , but what i saw was , Soon's wet , teary eyes. I was kinda shock to see that , but never forget to took out my tissues and handed to her , asking her what happen , asking Yap what happen to her. Yap had a sweet smile on her face and said >> Jie jie very touchy nia ~ that you prepared everything for us both , now she love you liao ~ :P
And i was like =.= ''' what ? well ... is a normal things that friends always does ... I don't see any reason for you to cried like that ( of course all these was in my heart blek :P ) But she told me , that never ever for the rest of her life , someone did this to her , not even her ex boyfriend , not even her parents , not even her friends , and she were surprise to see that someone could actually , remember everything that she needed to bring , including her bottle. And she thank me for doing that , also with the tissues...
I was...I don't know.. but i felt some sympathy deep inside my heart for Soon. And was kinda sad to hear that , I mean never ever ? She needs to prepare everything for herself ? How come ? She was beautiful , nice , attractive , i beg any guys would do that for her , and and !! :D friends !! and of course her parents ;) but no ? man i don't know what to say but... I shall only tell her that , Soon , is ok , no one cares for you ? I will ;) . No problem girl ;) wakaka.

wah !!!! cannot ah !!! dizzy !! haiz.. now i needed to lay down for a while. stop here now.

Tuesday, 17 June 2008

Missing you...




~ missing you my dear ~



T.T get off of me , i don't need you guys.

T.T .... *SNIF SNIF* You guys.. really disapppointed me. I don't need a friend who doesn't support me and still discriminating me with your silly so call jokes ... I just needed a friend who will support me T.T , can be just words ,nothing else,I don't need more,then that's enough .Did i ever ask you guys to help me up before ? No.I did not ask you guys to help me at all ,because i knew i could handle all these on my own.( You guys didn't even wish to help me I m sure ) But why did you guys always looking down on me and insulted me with terrible words ? Maybe, you can just remain quietly and leave me alone if you do not wish to discover my real ability ( and always try to find the less side of me ) , and I don't care after all. But at this moment , you guys are over , I was hurt , but still remain strong. I will not give up until the end , and will not let anyone of you to disturb those decision that I've make , because no one in this world could make me feel inferior without my own permission. Pls , would you all just shut up ? If you guys are jealous at me then let's all together battle fair and square ( instead of constantly accusing me cheating in the examination ) ,if you were not , I shall say that stabbing other's back is a cowardly act. Whatever it is , I believe in my own ability, and i wanted to prove you guys that you guys were wrong about me.We'll see. I'll just remain silent now , say whatever you guys wished to say, I did not want to decrease my own knowledge and wisdom because of your cowardly , bad , stupid and negative thoughts . I have my own vision about my own future , you guys are just a bunch of rubbish and small matter to me , instead of what I'm having now, I'll still continue proving myself to be better and better . Sorry to let you guys feel disappoint , but i will continue walking through this journey of mine. And I'm sure that I could succeed better than anyone of you here.Better watch out. Yes , i did cry , but that doesn't mean I have lost , In fact , I have stronger mind ever than usual , and is like an alarm that reminds me to fight for my own dignity, I will not hate you guys because you guys , doesn't deserve for me to hate , I won't let myself to be punish by my own angerness for the mistake that you guys did to me. And I will never !! Drop any single of my tears infront of these dumb humans.

Monday, 16 June 2008

傻瓜gambatte!!

傻瓜要靠试咯,即将会很忙,之后才放假summer vacation 呢 ,天,要考两星期那么多呢!!这简直是要把我给逼疯了不成?? 我会超想念他呢,两星期不碰电脑,唉。。。不过, 这也好, 男生吗,该懂得按排自己的时间,有disiplin 才是对的,该读书的时候读书,做事时做事。我就是看上他这点,才那么欣赏他,要知道,认真时候的男人,才是最Charming的,希望我的傻瓜可以Gambatte咯!! 当然,这也包括我啦,绝对不可以输给他,也得像他那样才行,和他一起努力,创造更好的未来。;) 爱你, 傻瓜,让我门一起GAMBATTE吧!!祝你好运咯!!

Friday, 13 June 2008

勇敢





I.... haiz... don't know what else i can say anymore...


speechless.. and tired.... ahh.. i 'll just leave them and do my own things.
don't want to waste my time on these little problems.
haiz...just keep it to myself.And say nothing else.


我时常会感到失落,却不知失落本身意味着什么。

花有失落,因为花恋枝头;叶无失落,因为落叶归根。

月有失落,因为月亮会被乌云遮没;日无失落,因为万物为阳光唱着赞歌。

茫然中,我苦思苦索,失落是什么?

是付出惨重代价的失误?

是未经思考就轻易做出的抉择?

在每个展转难眠的夜晚,失落总是象魔鬼纠缠着我,无处诉说!


不过,最近的我,却想通了,


古今成大事者,必先苦其心志,饿其体肤,增益其所不能。

我会越挫越勇。


并且要好好加油。

我要做的,就是尽我所有的能力去办好每一件事,


have vision , have self-esteem , have self confidence , and knowledgeable.


有自信,永不放弃自己,才是最主要的。


真正的竞争对手,是自己。


只要有哪一份心,什么事情都能办到


决不轻易被任何情绪影响。
别人看我做不到?


我不信,我相信我可以,


并且还可以做得更好。


继续瞧不起我吧,你们才是使我成功的源动力。


我是个有知慧的人。


你们所谓的闲言闲语,


决对难不倒我。
因为我听不到,这些所谓的“话题”。
我也不会选择去听它们。


我会活得更勇敢。


勇敢的去爱一个人,


勇敢的悲伤。


勇敢的决望,


勇敢的说话,


勇敢的去做每一件事,


勇敢的去想我的未来。


坚强而稳固。我就是我。爱丝特。




“ 这世界上没有人值得你去为他流泪,真正值得你去为他留泪的人,一定不希望看见你哭。”












Thursday, 12 June 2008

烦恼




" ...你應該這樣 .. 你應該那樣......... "
........................................................

這是我最近常聽到的一句話,
好多的建議一直從別人嘴裡湧出來,
我知道你們都是好意 ~
但我真的好迷茫
不要再逼我,
壓抑的情緒真的讓我有點透不過氣,
我需一個安靜的空間。