I m always hurt

This world is black... well , the arguing and stuff that day really makes me vomit. I will try to stop this argue between us as soon as i can , but there are still people who wanna to win and mess up all the things between you and them . sucks... and lastly , you would be blame for nothing. But they , will never apologize to you . never. even though if you say sorry to them ? they will say , well of course you did felt sorry, its your fault for sure. *sigh*

going to anime events , in timesquare , meet ps , jes , and lam . Insulted again , T.T , the meaning by jes was obvious. But , my gueses was right , jes did bring along ps , to meet me. And when i saw them , i saw ps , he was trying his insulting skills on me again , " HELLO esther" =.=''' am i only the target for them ? And why ? weird people they were for sure. of course , lam was doing nothing, and jes , was trying to create those funny insulting phrases on me . haha , can't blame him , i was the one who did trust him. keep sending message asking where am i ? Funny, I know about that earlier , saying to myself , must be ps beside him. And i m right.

But , i didn't even look at ps . because i don't even know him. Not interested with any one of them.

I m always hurt. that's why. just get use to it .