Sense...

I can sense that , we both are tired with these now...can really sense it .. will we make it ? until the day we had promise ? ..... well , i 'll just ... do whatever i have to do now .. hold on to this.. hold on.. just , let it goes naturally ... and see , if , this is our destiny .. remember the word esther , if is yours , no matter what happens , no matter how long it goes , no matter how many rounds it turns , is still yours , it will came back to you still ... at the end ... but if is not belongs to your destiny , no matter how you try to grab it , it still wouldn't be yours ... cause it is not belongs to you...


But i do believe that , as long as we both still have love in our heart , we'll make it

But if , haha , if one of us really lost the feelings in our heart .. it won't make it i m sure .. cause love is not just from one side , is from both side , only both can carry one love .. then it won't be any suffering in it. But ya know.. i m not the one that easily gave up with the one i love , i will still fight for it , until.. when it really needs to come to an end ,
then i 'll gave up .. i know you always had those believes in your heart but is all about the feelingss still... can't force that. Is hurt maybe , but never regret with it. i choose the path myself , so i have to face what would happen next ... haiz.. i don't know why this god =.=''' always prank on me with those stuff... is really my fate lah.. cause man ! never thought of having such a great young man .. to be the one i love never ever.. since i broke up with that bastard =.=''' i really decided to cut off any guys that try to chase me and telling me the same thing over and over again , making me really , oh boy not that again ... =.='''

but still , wakakakka !!! I met him ... and he's cool , really cool , the character and great personality of his , making me arggggggggggg !! why so damn good !?? But at first , really thought he was my pal , never even think of there is love that happens between us .. cheh , this God lah , prank of me again , swt !

when i think back all these , i was what the fuck am i doing ? Noooooooooo ! no way ! nooooooo ! How can you in love with a leng chai like him !?? Man you don't even deserve to lah ! cheh ! this time , you die esther ! you will die again !! nooooooo !! I promise to myself that i will never ever choose a leng chai to become the one that i love , cause personalities wins it all , and leng chai will never be stable >"< , they always cheat. But i believe that he won't cheat , is just ... haiz.. still he is a leng chai ... i bet he will find more and more girls better than me .. so from the start at this story .. obviously there is a consequences show up ... maybe you 'll said >> " who knows ? esther ? maybe he won't ? , but still the " who knows " only stands a little chance and percentage ... Cause haiz.. old story , let's don't talk about that.. but leng chai !! man !! no leng chai in my life no leng chai !! But why .. God has to put the cupid's love arrow on me ne ? haiz... haiz... haiz..

haiz !!!!!! And why !! it had to be that long distance !!?? fuck !! God !! are you nuts !?

strange things always happen happen happen .. cheh ! ! And , i m totally , totally drown into him now , can't change this fact .... haha well , if this time , FAILS AGAIN !! !!! ( fuck you )

I RATHER TO BE SINGLE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE , NO LOVE FOR ME !! YAY !!

>> at last i m free !! yay !!